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  Exhaustion, August 24, 2009

                What more can I say than I am sorry. It has been far too long to since I delved back into this masquerade. Let’s just say I lost my mask and was not properly dressed for the occasion.

I write to you now from a new world. I now live and learn in an upside down world from the one that I once called home.  I look around a see new faces of many colors and backgrounds.  I see new sights and smell new beautiful aromas.

I have been traveling in a sense for nearly a month. And as the title suggest, I am completely and utterly exhausted. But I have been waiting for this for practically my whole life. I have planned and re-planned, but yet I still find myself as the quintessential deer in the head lights.

Making my way over here has drained me, in many senses of the word; physically, emotionally, financially, just empty. But now I am here. And I am doing what I need to do to get by. I look around and wonder to myself, “How the hell did I end up here?” Never in my live did I think I was to live in a place like this. A place encrusted with history and tradition. Never in my life have I seen so many trees! Trivial I know, but coming from where I come from, it is a bit overwhelming how different everything is just a few thousand miles away from home. I must say that everyone here is extremely kind and welcoming to a lonely new comer, such as me.

So I was wondering about what I should share here in the Chateau, when I thought to myself, “am I still the ‘Prisoner’?” I no longer live in the golden cage that I once did. I am in an essence, free. Should I consider the frustrations of my past to be over and done with just because I have a new address? This is something I still must think about, in my cell of an apartment. But for the time being, and for all purposes of this blog, I shall remain the Prisoner.